20Aug

Missing in action no more

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*wipes layers of dust off*

I’ve been bad updating here. Emotionally I’ve gone through a lot of shit in the past couple of weeks that I’ve not been comfortable with expressing here knowing that this is accessible by anyone who comes across here. If you are an LJ friend of mine, then you might have an idea of but I couldn’t bring myself just to be open. I don’t know if I ever will be that comfortable without that ability of having friends only posts as my livejournal is set up.

I need…no…want to make an effort here because I do love my domain and if I ever get around setting up my other domain, I’ll transfer over there since I do love that name as well (especially the fact that I get snail mail for some reason addressed to lovebecomesher – makes me giggle). I do want to make something of this blog and not just say that I want to. I want to make friends and meet people and while I’ve been doing that well on livejournal branching out, I want to do that here as well.

So be on the lookout for more from me :)

01Jul

Free Agent Frenzy = love

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Fucking a’!

We’ve had this mouse (whom I’ve named Ralph after Ralph and the Motorcycle) make an appearance in the apartment from time to time in the past 2 months without any luck of us catching him. He’s tiny and he’d be cute if he weren’t a stray mouse! We’ve had this little black box trap set up ready to go but he’s been sneaky!

I got home today from work and I’m chilling on the computer when Mommy got home from hanging out with Kitty when she noticed the door to the trap is closed! w00t! Except for one problem: neither Mommy or I can bring ourselves to touch the box to throw him out! This leads to Mommy second guessing if Ralph is trapped and thus causing me to second guess myself. After freaking out, she says call Shelly as she figured Shelly would do it…so I did and she agreed (or rather she agreed to bring Yecenia to throw it out for us). Great!

Not so.

They get here and shake the box and lift the box…but nothing. You can’t feel a mouse in there, can’t hear it, doesn’t make any kind of thunk or scratching when the box was kicked or shaken. So Shelly and Yecenia tell us, nope no Ralph and I figure ok, they’re right because what do I know about catching mice? I open the trap ready to set it again when out of the freaking trap comes none other than Ralph scuttling toward the oven!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!! Ralph is on the loose again and I go to bed another night nervous that a mouse could potentially climb a wall and into bed with me :(

In other news…

It’s July 1st so it’s FREE AGENT FRENZY! I love Free Agent Frenzy and seeing where everyone goes! So a few thoughts:

-Does Chicago feel now that they won the Cup, they feel “hey, we can wait another 50 years for another win!” Seriously Chicago, can you stop trading your team away…it’s getting a bit ridiculous.
-It makes me giggle that Adam Burish who made fun of Chris Pronger isn’t a Blackhawk anymore. Jerk!
-I love Antero Niittymaki <3 However I’m quite depressed the Niittyshark (as phrased by my LJ friend who is a Thrashers fan) is now a Shark! At least when he was in Philly or Tampa, they’d play Washington often enough! I don’t get Sharks games here! I guess there is adthe.net when I need a Niitty fix.
-I’m kind of confused though as much as I love Niitty…who gets rid of Nabokov and then decides on Niitty for a number one goalie? I’m really curious now to follow the Sharks season with a Niitty/Greiss tandem! This is his chance to prove himself :)
-I’ll be happy when someone that’s not the Caps picks up Theodore. However, I’m not so sure how I feel of a tandem of Varly/Neuvy in goal – it could be wonderful or it could be disaster.
-Why did the Habs get rid of Halak for Alex Auld and Curtis Sanford? Do you really have that much faith in Price? I know I don’t and I’m not a Habs fan!
-I really like the signing of Martin Biron as a Ranger except I’m really confused by the Islanders. They’re going with Roloson and DiPietro…who hasn’t played a full season in 3 years?!? That’s what happens when you sign your soul to a goaltender who can’t play.
-I would like to know why Jody Shelley is so hated.
-Boogaard is a horrendous last name!
-I get confused every time I go to the hockey TSN site and they talk about a capital situation and I think they’re talking about the Caps only to remember it’s a Canadian site and thus they’re talking about the Ottawa Senators.
-Actually I take that back on the goalie situation in Washington…dear Caps who I adore…please get Nabokov or otherwise please keep Theodore? I don’t want to see any of the other free agent goalies as a Caps player and I don’t like the idea of Varly/Neuvy! Kthx!

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27Jun

Just one more thing before you leave… Don’t forget to remember me.

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I was talking to Tanya yesterday on AIM and she said something that struck me odd. She told me she was was going to have a small wedding because she doesn’t feel close to half of the people she used to know. I asked her why that was and she said it’s a sign that she hasn’t been invited to anything (i.e. weddings) and no one makes an effort to talk to her so why should she? I wanted to respond back something to the extent of: well, there’s your answer why you’re not invited – you don’t make an effort yourself so why should others? I didn’t because I know in her own way she does try and does seem to get rejected often.

But then I realized the opposite is true in my case…I do try and I feel as if I’m getting rejected by the ones I call my friends. I have barely talked to 3 of my closest friends in two months because they’re so wrapped up in their boyfriends (or husband as the case may be) that I feel like I’m just an afterthought. I don’t expect to talk to them 2 hours a day, 14 hours a week (as Lina’s friend expects of her) but I would like to hear from them more once a month or so and maybe actually see them once in awhile . I seem to find out what’s going on in their lives based on their Facebook statuses rather than them actually talking to me. I know I’ve been playing phone tag with one of them so it’s not as if I’m completely forgotten but I’d like to see sometimes more of an effort than me trying to do it all the time. And then there’s my best friend who I either hear from her on a regular basis and then she doesn’t call me for a month or two. I’ve given up calling her – at this point if she wants to talk, she can call me. Cold maybe. I spent 6 months in college calling her on a regular basis begging her to talk to me and just tell me what’s wrong with her and she wouldn’t answer my calls. I won’t go down that road again. Most of my closest college friends I barely hear from either and I know they’re really busy and wrapped up in work and life but it would nice to hear from them once in awhile.

I feel like I’ve very few friends that I can really talk to right now about anything that I trust or just spend time with. There’s Jon. But what happens when I want to talk about my doofusface to someone else or need advice? I can’t go to him to bitch about him. Micah is in VA and works a lot. I can go to Shelly but I know she’s busy with Ethan and work and her own problems. I’m just rebuilding a friendship now with Charlie. Jason I know is busy and dealing with a lot of drama. Yup 5 people. Well 6, if Romeo got his cell phone back and it was easier to contact him – but he tries nonetheless. I know it’s quality over quantity and I believe that wholeheartedly. However, to be honest, I’m also lonely. Yes I’ll admit that.

Charlie has been telling me I should join some kind of activity to meet people and make friends such as joining a kickball league. I see my Facebook friends post their pics from their kickball leagues and it looks like fun. I’m thinking about joining one that starts next month. Beyond that I don’t know what to do and I hate that I just feel stuck at home with no one really to talk to. Any ideas of what else I could do to get out there and meet people?

I used to think if I ever moved, what would I do without my friends. I thought I’d be lost. I’m still here and I feel lost without them so what’s the difference, I wonder?

/whiny look at me post here.

25Jun

Friday Frustrations

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I’ve 5 days left of this blog-a-thon and I’m pretty proud that I made it this far not missing a day. However, as I think about my day today and try to think about what to write about, I find myself stuck and frustrated which leaves me to lay on Jon’s bed staring at his beerpong poster wondering why there’s no beer in those cups! Frustrated I googled Friday Memes and voila! I found something to fit my mood and something to write about. So I bring you my top 10 frustrations this week!

1. People who like to think they can judge me and how I live my life and how I should handle my relationship with my father and what I should do for him. And no, you do not know what I’ve been through with him so STFU.
2. TV shows not loading. I love Ramzor but episode 4 is driving me insane not loading properly!
3. Not pooping. Enough said.
4. Being around people who don’t talk much. I’m awkward enough as it is – please do not make me feel more awkward and self-conscious!
5. Awkward hello’s and goodbyes.
6. Family members jumping to conclusions and not taking the time to think something through!
7. The Dustin Byfuglien trade…what was Chicago thinking? Better yet, why weren’t they thinking?
8. The big deal over Taylor versus Tyler…who cares who’s going to be number one in the draft? Lot of the times it seems the big names were lower numbers in drafts.
9. The fact that I kept refreshing around 7 PM tonight to see if it was going to be Taylor or Tyler as number one.
10. It takes way too long to restore my energy on Treasure Isle on Facebook…can I please get to the bottom of the volcano already so I can return to my regularly scheduled program of actually searching for treasures on islands.
…and as a side note, why am I not an actual treasure hunter? or a penguin feeder?

23Jun

A day at the zoo :)

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Jon and I went to the Lehigh Valley Zoo today for a couple of hours (in Schnecksville! I’ve seen more of Schnecksville this trip than I have in my 5 years of coming up here!). This was my first time ever going to a zoo that’s not the National Zoo in D.C. so it was a different experience for me. LV Zoo is much smaller than the National Zoo but I think has quite a bunch of awesome things to see and do!

First off, slight tangent rant but: do people not look at themselves and how they look before they leave the house! Seriously, mirrors were invented for reason – use them! We got to the zoo, got out and we’re standing by the entrance as Jon smokes a cig when a car parked right next to us and out come a husband and wife with two little children. Great. My gaze zeroed in instantly on the wife – why? She was wearing a jean skirt but when she bent over, her ass was hanging out of her skirt and it was quite apparent she wasn’t wearing underwear! So she stands up and still doesn’t adjust the skirt so her ass is halfway out her skirt! WTF? I know I’m bad sometimes when my jeans start slipping but not that horrible! They get their kids ready and they start walking over and I barely could stop myself from screaming WTF out loud (I whispered in Jon’s ear though!). She’s wearing a low cut tank top that you can see her whole bra through and her boob is popping out of her shirt! I could see nipple! This is a zoo not a dance club or a strip club! Oy!

So the penguins were the first exhibit we saw as it’s the first thing you see when you walk in…which was fine by me because I’d have been happy just watching penguins all day! I <3333 penguins if you didn’t know that about me. They’re quite adorable! This is my first time ever seeing them live (despite my stupid ex promising he was going to take me to the zoo in Baltimore to see penguins! But then again he promised a lot of things!) and I love them! There were 10 African penguins who are just so much fun to watch. I’m jealous though of the penguin feeder when it came time to watch them be fed…seriously I wouldn’t mind being paid to feed penguins all day! My favorite penguin I’ll admit was Lionel (each have names) because unlike the rest of them, his feathers hadn’t molted yet so he didn’t match all the others lol. I like the ones that stand out!

I got to see owls which I love because they remind me of wise old men :)

The otters cracked me up as they played with each other and squeeked.

I saw Emus which every time I think of Emus I think of a) Lisa Kleypas’s novel Sugar Daddy in which Liberty describes how her mom’s boyfriend brought home an Emu to eat after he shot it when he saw it walking across a street or b) Susan Elizabeth Phillips novel Lady Be Good where Kenny’s sister raises Emus. I can’t take Emus seriously after that.

I actually got the see Kangaroos which I was excited about and part of a little Joey sticking out of his mommy’s pouch…so cute :) I realize Kangaroos just look like dogs to me that can hop.

We got to feed the Lorikeets (imagine parakeets dipped in tye-die!) which was awesome. Jon got one to walk on his hand – me I was too scared to for the first bit but after awhile, I tried – got one to nibble at me and put one foot on me but then flew away!

I also got to feed goats! I wasn’t going to at first because there’s something about a goat eating out of my hand and licking me that grossed me out. But then I realized how much different is that from a dog eating out of mind…so I did it! Goats to me seem perpetually happy – I wonder if they know a secret I don’t?

So good times all in all!

Saw Toy Story 3 after and cried! I’m not afraid to admit it! While parts of the movie I don’t know how appropriate they are for kids, I really enjoyed the movie :)

Plans for the rest of the week: pool and Lower Milford Carnival today, Amish Comic tomorrow, and heading back Saturday sadly (I have to be at an unveiling on Sunday at 10 AM). I may come up next weekend though for the 4th – not too sure yet. If not I know I’ll be back the weekend of the 24th of July :)

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